Holly Forster Lowery
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Sometimes I feel like a monster, my own worst enemy. A swirling darkness engulfs me and I can't talk myself round.
Thoughts are always there, you're not good enough, you're a failure.......I can't talk about it because I'm almost 40, have children I need to be strong, I'm normal....... Honest........... Before that I couldn't express my feelings because I'm nearly 30 and I need to get my life together, be an adult do what's expected, don't be weak...... Stupid. Before that I was young and lucky and almost 20, off to uni, someone's way worse off.......Before that I was a child, lost, alone, lying in bed hiding my feelings because I was ashamed. Anxiety has always been there and always will be sometimes I can't hide it and sometimes now I can talk about it.